Day 22 January 31,2007

Well here it is Day 22.The month is over finally! I did not get a letter today.Kinda sucks.I am kinda used to getting one a day now.My hood is so stuck on the van and I need to put the fluids in it.I hate that van.2 people have tried.I am taking it to Daves to open.Maybe he will for free. No w2 still!!! Grr why soo damn long?? I have ment a few girls that are cool online that are married to the Military.I hope it helps.I can not wait to see Ken on March 23.thats his date for graduation so far.I so miss him a lot.The kids went to bed at 6:30! both of them!!! I am up and alone.(Sigh) I hope Ken is thinking about us.we are of him.He told me in a letter that he looked out side and saw the moon and he said thats the same moon I look at when I am home.So he said to look at it at nite and know he is as well thinking of us:) Ilove him....

Day 21 January 30,2007

Well today was kinda stressful.I got the base ment done for the guys.I did a damn good job.I had to bring up all Kens airsoft stuff and uniforms upstairs.Then clean all the mold and put the basement in order.I had to wait til Hunter got home so he could help with Jayden.Jayden wound up downstairs with me though lol.The guys came by and it was soo weird without Ken being here.So weird.I put Jayden to bed before they played so he would not get upset.He loves his dad so much.I did not hear a word downstairs.I always hear Ken lol.It was a slow day.Each day is freaking dragging! My taxes are taking forever to get here.I am pissed!!!I need to get this stuff going already!!

Day 20 January 29,2007

Well here it is Day 20! I got two more letters from Ken.I guess things are looking up some.He is doing the real part of training now.Hes got his Gun and they take them apart and put them together.Prob have to never take it part lol.I am still hoping he does not go to Iraq.The phone rang today and Jayden ran to get it,thinking it was his daddy.It really sucks they do not let them call even on Sunday.I mean these guys rae hlping to save us and others and they can't make a call to home once a week on God day?? I cleaned out the bathroom and threw half of the stuff out.I have to call his mom and let her know whats going on as well.Hunter has a new teacher.A guy teacher.Hes happy.But he said the works to easy for him.Thats good he notices that.Jayden used the bathroom again!! I wish Ken could see all this.Hes sleeping now.Long day I guess lol.well I am off to write my sweetie another letter:)

Day 19 January 28,2007

Well here it is Day 19! I get letters from Ken almost everyday:) They really help us.I feel bad for Jayden cause he does not understand the letters.I have wrote Ken a few times but he still does not have them.That sucks he prob thinks I have not wrote him yet.I have sent 5 letters now.Today was spent doing nothing again.Kinda boring lol.No money is bad anough with a bad car.But No Ken makes it lamer.I miss K-dogg days lol.I am slowly cleaning stuff out.Just in case by some odd chance I can sell this place.Hobie and Scott will here here Tuesday.Hope that goes ok.Everyday I think abaout Ken and what hes doing.I sure hope he knows we miss him a lot.

Day 18 January 27,2007

Today was a ok day.We cleaned up the house and watched dvds.The kids are ok today.Not as bad as yesterday.I got another letter from Kens.Hes not doing good at all.I feel bad for him.Hes getting no sleep hardly any food and they are being pushed to far.I wish I could go beat them all up for him lol.Mason stopped over for a few.Other than that its kinda a quiet day.I have to log into the sites of his and check in.Its been a few since I did.I took a hot bubble bath tonite and read some of the Bible.It was great! We all just really really miss Ken......we love him.I am gonna go watch this Lifetime movie lol

Day 17 January 26,2007

Today was a lame day.I got one of my w2 forms.Just waiting on another.I sent out another 3 letters to Ken.I am on my last nereves with these Kids.All they do is fight,fight and fight.Hunter needs a brick in his head.He is starting to refuse to listen.I am gonna hurt him if he does not listen.My nerves are shot.I am thinking of sending him away,to camp this Summer.Jayden is just as bad.My head is getting dizzy again.I am deeply annoyed.I think hes doing this cause of Ken and Iraq.He just started this since that letter.I think hes afraid to lose him.Jayden is always breaking Hunters stuff and hitting him.Hunter hits back oohh Lord! Well they are fighting I gotta go.......I miss Ken lol

Day 16 January 25,2007

Well here it is Day 16! Can u believe its been this long.I took the kids to the Mall for the day.It was weird without Ken being with us.Even Jayden was really Klingy with me.Hes stayed by me and Hunter only.when we got home I had gotten another letter from him.Hes so worn down.Hes not eating good,getting sick.The guys are treating them like 2 year old kids telling them to pee their pants?? Damn morons.Thats why more people do not join.Its not that we do not want to help but we do not want to be treated that way.He was told hes going to Iraq! 90 percent chance hes going.Then they said that most of the guys that die have the jobs they are gonna be doing.I do not think so.He best flunk out and come home.I will not think less of him.I do not want him to go to Iraq.With his job hes going to his death sentence.I want to write him and tell him but I think they read his mail.So I will tell him on the phone.Going to Iraq would be ok if he was not driving gas tanks.On them Roads?? No way...This is not what we wanted.I thought he would get a home based army job.cause of his age.I am to upset to sleep.I love him to much to lose him.

Day 15 January 24,2007

Well here it is day 15.Well Today I cleaned up some.Was not a lot to do.Its been stayign clean for the most part if I keep after Jayden.lol.Kens Mom came over today.Around one.It was good seeing her.It was weird without Ken.But there was not fights this time lol.Turns out she drove out to get Kens w2 but I thought he got it but he did not It was a W4 and it looked just like a W2.I should have figured it out.Thank God she was not mad,we laughed it off.Later we got pizza and Beer!! lol Yummy!! She helped me with Money.She almsot gave me 200 I told her I did not need that much.I think I shocked her. I told her 60 is enough.I got 100.I will be paying her back and My brother.It was nice of her and him to help us.That was pretty Much our day. I miss Ken more and More everyday:(

Day 14 January 23,2007

Well here it is Day 14.I really really miss Ken. The kids fight every time I am online or on the phone,everytime.Jaydens new thing is throwing toys at Hunter.Big ones. He yells at him OMG help. I need a sitter for a weekend before I go out of my mind. My headaches are trying to come back along with the light headed stuff.Prob from Stress.I am doing ok. Just money is a big problem.If I had that I could get the kids out and take them someplace.Put gas in the van,Buy me a beer lol. Life would be good again!! I miss having a beer with Ken in a cold freezer glass on the weekends.Anyways I am gonna let Hunter online.I found him this jackpot site full of free games.Hes hooked!!!

Day 13 January 22,2007

Well here it is Day 13th.I got a letter from Ken.that was nice.I needed to get one today.It is so stressful.I have so much to do now.I have the kids full time,the dog who makes a mess all the time now(shit and pissing in the house)all the shopping,laundry,cleaning cooking homework,running around,changing diapers,bottles.I want I need!!! arrrggggg!!! I am going nuts.The van did not start cause who knows why so Hunter missed school again.The school has a meeting tonite they want me there.I do not have the gas or time.I am sure his teacher will have a fit tommorrow.Oh well I am doing this for Ken.Hope he does well in this lol.I need a beer... lol

Day 12 January 21,2007

Well here it Day 12.Its getting pretty Crazy here.The kids are going nuts.I talk to Kens Moms which is now my moms lol(shes to much like a party gal to call her mom lol)She will be here Wednesday for Kens W2 forms.Which I still never got mine.The base ment is still wet,Its been a DAMN month already!!!! I smell the mold from the water being down there.I am sure this is not good for us.Good thing its the basement.No one has been by still.Kinda boring.Mason was gonna be here but he got held up at work.the Forms are here from the army and I have no way to get them in yet.The recruiter was to busy to take me.But he said theres no hurry.well thats iT.I am beat.

Day 11 January 20,2007

Well here it is Day 11.Its been a long awful day.The weekends are not the same without Ken here.The kids are getting out of hand.Prob cause we can not leave the house cause of the van and no money whatso ever.The gas is gone in the Van,diapers are almost out,the kids used up the soap for the bath tub...oOOH MY.I got Kens letter and the stuff from the Army Today.His letter made me feel better.He said some nice stuff to me in the letter.I hope he stays nice and comes back not so mean.Hes really a great guy just to controlling and yells to much lol.Well I am off to bed.I could have used a cold ass beer tonite.grrrrr.We miss Ken

Day 10 January 19,2007

Well here it is Day 10.Damn 10 days!!! This is gonna take forever!!! These 6 months are not gonna fly buy then are gonna snail by lol.I made my friend a myspace page.Kim was happy.We took some pics.The ones I liked of myself she hated the way she looked so I just photoshoped her out and keep the part with me.I never take good pics lol.I have started my exercises for the Summer which yes is a ways off.I hope I get rid of this Butt I have lol.I wonder what Ken is doing right now??/ I picked up Hunter early today cause we had a kinda bad snow fall and my wipers do not work.I am doing ok with everything with Ken being gone.I just miss him being here.Jayden fell out early.No naps mean early bed time.I will keep him up Sunday in case Ken calls.Hunters int he room watching wrestling.Its quiet right now! Yes!!!! I called everyone and gave them my new number.To bad Ken has the wrong one lol.The bone head on the phone gave me the wrong number.I tried to call myself and thats how I found out it was wrong.thats annoying lol.SO thats about how my day is.I wish I had a cold beer right now lol. aww well....

Day 9 January 18,2007

So here it is day 9.Its hard to believe that hes been gone this long.Him and Ihave not really been seperated this long.I mean we were once for him to go away for work but we had camera phones and sent videos and talked all the time all day so it was like he was still here.But not hearing his voice at least sucks.
I almost him his picky ways.the Jesus cross was Crooked.That was a pet peeve he had.I fixed it lol.Jaydens behavior,thank God Ken is not here.Hes getting worse.I dunno sounds like Nanny 911 time here lol.Hunter got a A on his spelling test.that was cool.Hes been ok I guess.I hope Ken calls me this week.I really miss him a lot.I got to use my house phone for the first time yesterday.i called...yes my mom.Itw as cool to fianlly sit down and tlak to her.Anyways that was it for the day....

Day 8 January,17,2007

Well here it is Day 8.Hunter made it to school.I poured hot water on the van doors again and kicked them.One door fianlly opened lol.Not very cool opening the drivers side and having Hunter climb out my door to go to school lol.

Jayden spend the day watching Bob the Builder and his dads video and We were Soliders dvds.Hunter watched the We Were Soliders movie too.

I cleaned up the water downstairs again only to have it flood again grrrr! The heat won't stay running like its suppose to.I dug up Kens old Cordless but after twos days of charging its still dead.So I had to buy one with the last of our money.That sucked.

Jaydens so cute.....and we miss Ken

Day 7 January 16th,2007

Well here it is Day 7. We had a ice storm the other day,then snow! My van was frozen shut.I tried everything to open it.Hunter wound up missing school as well.Its getting a bit crazy here with the kids cause we have no money or gas or even a ride anyplace.The van only goes a few miles before it shuts off in the middle of driving.

We have not gone anyplace at all.The money that Rob and Nikki gave is is gone.It sucks.I wished we had like 200 bucks lol.No money til the middle is Feb is gonna be very hard.No one from my family has called or helped out at all.Figures...I sure hope Ken is doing ok.we all do miss him a lot.Friday he will be at BTC.

Day 6 Januarty 15,2007

Well here it is,Day 6....Today was a lame day.We just sat around and cleaned the house.I was so tired.Hunter did the dished and put them away.Did a pretty good job.Jayden is like a hurricane through the house lol.Kim stopped by.Just hung out for a few.We all went to bed early.I could go for a beer lol.Its been a few since I had one lol..

Day 5 January 14th 2007

Well day 5 is here.Today was spent cleaning out some stuff.The kids fought most of the day today....

Good news....KEN CALLED ME!! I was so happy..he called 3 times too! He said they are mean,hes at reception.He went to ask a Sergent something and they guy told him to get out of his face.I know they have to be mean but thats not tough thats disrespectful in my eyes.Oh well he'll be ok I hope lol.He has to be. He still is not in BTC yet.

I should be getting a home phone tommorrow.I did not want one but I need a secure connection when Ken calls.Not a cell that has bad reception.

I watched Girly movies all nite and made Hunter do the same lol.

Day 4 January 13,2007

Well here it is day 4.Its 10 pm.Jayden has been in bed since 7.He had a bad day today.He still has not asked about his dad yet.I think he knows he's bye bye Army as he puts it.Pretty Much we watched dvds all day,Jaydens choice of course lol.Even Hunter came out and spent the day with us.The house has been very clean for days now.I have redone some stuff.Picking up after Jayden is a all day Job lol.

I finished up my new Military wife myspace website.Ken is gonna love it.You know seeing all the pics and videos makes me excited to play this role of military wife.Its kinda like a cool adventure.I love that Ken sets his mind to do something and even if hes afraid of it he still does it.At First the nights were my only trouble being alone, but today felt odd with out him.Since the day we met we have always been together every week.Almost 4 years.

I know hes not at training yet.I hope he does ok.I am sure he will.I hope he calls soon though.He was suppose to call 2 days ago.I am sure they have him Busy.I sure miss Ken a lot.Wonder if he misses us yet or is he relieved from the crazy mad house we have lol. Until tommorrow.........

Day 3 January 12th 2007

Well here it is the 3rd day.About 10 am in the morning.Hunter is at school and Jayden is being a terror as usual.I have tons of trouble logging into this blog.I have not heard from Ken at all. He was suppose to get to call one last time to tell me he made it there.I am kinda worried.I have changed My homepage ,the myspace page to support him.I do miss him a lot.I miss making him dinner.He loves a good plate of food lol.I even miss him being online and watching the Military channel.Although it drove me nuts while he was here.

I am dead broke.I could use about 50 bucks maybe 60 to hold me over but I have no way to get money.He paid all the bills in full before he left which was good but leaving no money behind sucks.I hope hes doing ok.Hunter is still kinda acting strange.Yesterday he slept when he got home and when he got up he just did his homework and went back to bed.Odd for him lol.Jayden is doing fine as long as we play the daddy tape 50 times a day lol.We all miss him a lot.

Day 2 January 11th 2007

Well we all got up to get ready for school. 2 Mornings without Ken being here.Last nite The President informed everyone that he has a plan to send another 21,500 troops to Iraq! Thats not what I wanted to hear.When he signed up for this they were talking about pulling the troops.This sucks.I pray he does not have to go.I already Miss him a whole lot.More than he knows.Jayden watches the video of his dad we made all day.Hunter is unusally quiet.I sure hope I can pull through this.Its only the second day.I have to do it for him though and for the Kids sake.More later tonite....

Day One.... Jan 10th,2007

Hi there,This is my First Blog.I have decided to make one to document how the day goes without my Husband and My Childrens father being here.Ken left today for Basic training in Fort Jackson in South Carolina.We got to see him briefly today,His good bye was to fast and rushed.We sorta felt rushed and incomplete.Kens mom and dad came.I could tell She was not happy with this whole thing.But shes supportive,Jerry seemed kinda proud though.he even wore his old Army gear from when he served.He has wonderful parents.I love them...

When we got home everything was ok.My friend Kim who drove us to see him off hung out with us for a while.We watched dvds.We made a few short videos of Ken to show the baby while he was gone.After Viewing them Jayden got his Coat and said "Bye bye daddy Mom".
Poor thing already misses him being not even 3 yet.He does not understand.Hunter my 8 year old was gloomy for the day.I am doing ok.Tonite will suck, cause we always lay on the coach and watch tv or talk about stuff. I hope I can do this....
Below is a pic Of Ken leaving :(