March 17

It has been a while since my last post.My whole house has been very sick with I have no idea what.I think its the flu.I had to admit all of us in the ER to get some medical help.They gave us antibiotics and we got sick again.Its hard to take care of my self being this sick and two kids as well.Ken Gradutates on March 23! I am going to drive to SC to see him with the kids.I can't wait!!! I have spent some money getting things in order here with Bills and house repair stuff.Then all of us where in bad need of new clothes and shoes.Once this trip is over time to save money now.The fun part is over.I want to save as much money as I can for when Ken does get home.Well I need to go lay down.I am all messed up lol

Day 37 Febuary 15,2007

Well here it is Day 37.Its hard to believe its been 37 days now.I talked to my mom last nite,I was in a bitch fest mood lol.Today I got up and called the bank there was 1000 in it so I paid the Mortgage online.It was easier,costed 12 dollars to do it but they got it.I am happy.I got some candles today in case our power goes out.This wheather has been bad,really bad.I got letters from Ken today,he kinda pissed me off cause he said he can't take bad news.There was no bad news.He was mad about overdraft fees.I did not make them.He did by not having money in the account,when he left.I waited on the Mortgage til the 15 and got the van fixed and thats done.I did not have to borrow nothing to do the car or van!! Plus he wrote that he thougt I would write him more.I write him all the time.I do not think hes getting my letters.Or not all of them.He said other soilders get mail everyday.He looks for mail from us.I write about every other day.Its hard to get time with Jayden.hes a lot of work,then he said he knew Jayden would fucking forget about him,just cause Jyaden did not talk on the phone.Well that was silly cause he knows Jayden never talks on the phone lol.Jayden talks about Ken everyday all day,trust me lol.He must be ahvin a pity party too like I was last nite lol.AW well I wrote him again today so he'll get it next month prob lol:)

Day 36 Febuary 14,2007

Well here it is day 36.Its Valentines day and no Ken:( Eveeryones getting gifts,going out to eat,etc.Not me I got kids and a headache.No school again this time cause of the storm.I found another cousins of Hunters on myspace.We are gonna get together soon witht he family.No one has seen Hunters dad.I am gonna invite them all to Hunters bday party.We are afraid to have one no one has every showed up at his party.One year I had people from work come.They did cause they new that no one else would show up.I had to shovel the snow today myself.It was hard work lol.I want to leave the house but its too cold and fixed or not I do not trust that van.I let Jayden do water colors in the kitchen.I made Hunter a myspace page and finished it up today.His page is for family only.It looks cool.A few more day until the DAYTONA 500!!!!! I can't wait!!!! I sure miss Ken a lot today:( I hope he got the cards we sent him.There was 4 of them.Todays the 14th no money yet in the bank from taxes.I have to make the mortgage by tommorrow! I may have to call moms(Kens Mom)I am trying not to.I will see.No stove yet.But my hair looks really good today lol...

Day 35 Febuary 13,2007

Well here it is Day 35.Hunter was still sick with a high fever so he stayed home again.He was still in the room ut it was hard to keep Jayden out of the room.Poor hunter no matter what he does Jayden has to do it too.The Hunter yells which is not cool,then Jayden yells,then I yell lol omg!I moved the table today and allt he legs fell off,they fell the fuck off!!! lol.All that work Robert did was for nothing.I checked it too it was very sturdy,I have no idea why it did that.He will be upset cause it took him a while to fix,But the wood that was used to make the table is weird,Its partical board.ups came yesterday for me but I was not here.They said they would be back on the note but they never showed up.Its very very bad out side.Snow storm,strong winds.Its scary.If I saw a homeless person at this point I would let them in cause its not nice out there for anyone.

Day 34 Febuary 12,2007

Well here it is day 34.I was right Hunter had 101 temp and a swollen throat.He stayed home from school.Hes missing way to much school for everythign going on.I had him a his room away from Jayden and me lol.Still no stove yet.I tried to pull the stove out myself to measure the part but the stove would not move.This sucks.I want real food not micro food.Robert Does not eat any home cooked food.over the weekend he ate all micro processed food.ewww! Today I moved the crib to the bedroom,the diningroom has more room now.Hunters room is still hit lol.Everything is in there right now lol.Kens Airsoft,ST uniforms all the toys,extra coats etc lol.Hunter heard something in the basement.we were scared big time I do not know what he heard but we checked it an hour later and everythign was fine.I have the windows blocked anyways.The crib took forever to put back together.I got a few letters from Ken today.I like getting his letters.I sure could have used his help today..

Day 33 Febuary 11,2007

Well here it is Day 33! Today the drivers were qualifying!! Tony is in 8th spot so far.WHta funny is all of Gibbs racing guys are in a row.The guys rae here for practice again,the took the stove out and Robert and Mark brought the one from the shed in.I have no idea if it works yet.I need a part for it I guess???Ken also called today!!!! His platoon won something and they got a 5 min call.He talked for ten lol! I did not even know it was him lol.It was so good hearing from him!! He got to talk to Jayden and Hunter and me! He seems to be doing ok so thats good.I know its hard on him though.I took Robert home and Nikki gave me a bunch of quilt materail.It was some nice stuff.Hunter is not feeling to good.I can tell hes getting something.

Day 32 Febuary 10,2007

Well here it is Day 32!!! Gosh time is going so slow.Good news though.Daytona pratice is on!!! That means Daytona 500 is around the corner!! I am havin a small get togehter.Robert fix our coffee table.He made all new holes in new spots and put the legs in new parts of the wood.Its strong I hope.He also helped me take some stuff downstairs.Good thing he was here.It was to heavy for me and fixing stuff with Jayden around is impossible lol.This house needs a lot of work.I hope I can get it all done before Ken gets back.I want him to come home to a nice cute house.I stil got that irritating cough! I hate it.I want to go to the doctors but taking Jayden anywhere sucks.At least with Ken here he could watch him.Oh well I will live lol

Day 31, Febuary 9,2007

Well here it is Day 31! Its getting more normal around here.The routine is getitng into play for us now.Likewise for Ken I am sure.I got another couch it was from a old lady down the road.So its nice to have more than one place to sit.It was hard for Hunter and I to get it into the house.Heres where Ken being here would help lol.Robert is here for the weekend.Thats cool.We just watched dvds all nite and Jayden was funny,when Robert told Jayden to do something,Jayden ran off and layed ont he floor and pouted.It was so cute.Rob went to hug him and Jayden with his attitude was not havin it.The whether is sooo damn cold right now.Wonder how it is where Ken is at??

Day 30 Febuary 8,2007

Well Hunter got to school ok this time lol.Jayden and I hung out watching Bob the Builder and the tape with his dad on it.Hes really smart cause he knows where his dad is.The Stove broke down well the whole thing.I have no stove now lol.Thats nice since I have a lot of food that needs a stove lol.Nice luck huh.My heat still works when it wants to.I had half way made spaggetti and the rest got made in the microwave.Ever boil noodles in a microwave lol.It turned out good though.Hobie,Scott and Michelle came by for practice.Michelle left early.I have this irritating cough,its like a build up that won't go away.My throat is sore from coughing so much.Jayden is always fighting with his brother.He throws things at him all the time.He is out of control lol.We also sent letters and cards out to Ken today:)

Day 29 Febuary 7,2007

Well here it is day 29.I had the van towed to Daves to get fixed.Hunter had to stay home again cause of it.No other kids go to his school so he had no ride.Plus I do not have friendly neighbors.It was about 570 to fix it.Kens mom offered to pay for it but I had already done it.She really wanted to help with it.I just want to try and do this on my own But I had to wait on the Mortgage to fix it the van.So I asked if I need help with the mortage could she help.I will of course give her the money.Its just not sure if the taxes will be in yet or Kens money by the 15th.She said call her.Lets hope money is in.

Day 28 Febuary 6,2007

Well here it is Day 28.The Schools were closed again due to the whether.Good thing anyways cause the van still does not work.Today was a boring day,just went online,kids watched tv. Thats it lol

Day 27 Feburay 5,2007

Well here it is Day 27! I got up at 7:00 am.Got Hunter ready for school.I went out to start the van and it would not start.I tried to open the hood but nothing.It was stuck as usual and on top of that frozen shut.I came in and found out there was no school! Its to damn cold I guess so they closed the school!! I guess below 10 degrees is cold.My battery is dead.So both kids all day means fighting all day lol.I do miss Ken helping with this part,course that mean a lot of crying lol.He yells they run and cry lol.I think they lady across the street is doing rent scam.She pretened to put trash out and closed up her doors which she never does.Her friend drove up in a van and picked up the "trash".to bad I know the landlord and called and turned her in.Its not cool to do that.Gosh I hate the Ghetto lol.Pontiac is so Ghetto.Gosh when I first came here.It was kinda nice.I am scared and I wish Ken was here to save us lol. Maybe cause we r getting used to him being gone the time will fly by.I know he misses Jayden a lot.Hes got guts! More than I do lol.Maybe not though cause Kids are so much work and stress,it may make the Army a playground lol!

ps Hunter has no school tommorrow!! Ken can I visit you asap! Kids make me nuts lol!

Day 26,Febuary 4,2007

Well here it is Day 26! Today is a laid back day and the Super Bowl is on.Moms came over to get the w2 for Ken and to hang out for a few with us.Shes so funny.I like her lol.We got some junk food and beer and hung out and watched the game.It was cool not even a few seconds into the game The Bears got the First touchdown! Damn that was fast!!! But the Colts wound up winning it.Later I watched a Little House on the Prarie Marathon! The kids fell out.The were tired.It was weird not having Ken here cause we make hsi bean dip and my hot wings and beer all day.I wonder if they got to watch the game??

Day 25 Febuary 3,2007

Well here it is Day 25!! This time I went out for the day to get more food,some stamps to write Ken,a 6 pack of beer cause I need it lol!I let each Kid picks a toy.They have been without for a while so its a treat and second cause they miss Ken and it makes em be happy for a few.Hunter picked a wrestler and a wrestling ring.Jayden got two Thomas train sets lol. I got nothing lol.Its cool.I like them happy.Kim came by for a while,First she took me to get mt taxes done then we watched lifetime movies lol and ate pizza! At 9 pm at nite Iknow Ken is in bed cause the Army has them in bed that early.I always wonder what hes thinking.We do think of him everyday,no matter what happens hes a part of our life here or not.

Day 24 Febuary 2,2007

Well here it is Day 24! I got up,still no money.I have not had coffee in weeks.I am so tired and worn out.I watched some tv with Jayden.Of course his shows.Bob the Builder is his fave show,I called the bank for the hell of it to see how much bank fees over drafted our account.I called and there was 1000 in the bank!! I had to recall to make sure! It was true!! I was singing all over the house lol! I dressed Jayden and we went out for the day.Hunter was in school! I got some food,paid a few bills and got some pictures done for Ken.It was like a alarm clock for me.It gave me energy having money lol! I even spend a few bucks on my self and got Pantene Shampoo! lol.We had a good day and I have no idea if that "WAS" Kens Income or Mine.Notice I said "WAS" lol j/k No I did not spend much.I left a lot for him in case he needed it.

Day 23 Febuary 1,2007

Well here it is Day 23!!! Today was pretty much another boring day.I was watching some Football highlights and was thinking about Ken.Jayden asked about his dad,he says where Daddy I saw Daddy Army and I think he knows.I can tell he misses him.Hunter has his first day of Tutor class.But when I picked him up he had fallen down the steps at school and hurt his knee and nose pretty good.Still broke and no money.It will be ok soon.Theres someone else always worse off that you.I got another letter from Ken.Gosh I do miss him.Not the yelling all the time but the rest of it.It starting to turn into a Routine day now without Ken.I am getting used to it now.Feb 9th will be a month since hes been gone.Him and I make a good team and I think with him doing this.It will make me stronger and in more control.

Day 22 January 31,2007

Well here it is Day 22.The month is over finally! I did not get a letter today.Kinda sucks.I am kinda used to getting one a day now.My hood is so stuck on the van and I need to put the fluids in it.I hate that van.2 people have tried.I am taking it to Daves to open.Maybe he will for free. No w2 still!!! Grr why soo damn long?? I have ment a few girls that are cool online that are married to the Military.I hope it helps.I can not wait to see Ken on March 23.thats his date for graduation so far.I so miss him a lot.The kids went to bed at 6:30! both of them!!! I am up and alone.(Sigh) I hope Ken is thinking about us.we are of him.He told me in a letter that he looked out side and saw the moon and he said thats the same moon I look at when I am home.So he said to look at it at nite and know he is as well thinking of us:) Ilove him....

Day 21 January 30,2007

Well today was kinda stressful.I got the base ment done for the guys.I did a damn good job.I had to bring up all Kens airsoft stuff and uniforms upstairs.Then clean all the mold and put the basement in order.I had to wait til Hunter got home so he could help with Jayden.Jayden wound up downstairs with me though lol.The guys came by and it was soo weird without Ken being here.So weird.I put Jayden to bed before they played so he would not get upset.He loves his dad so much.I did not hear a word downstairs.I always hear Ken lol.It was a slow day.Each day is freaking dragging! My taxes are taking forever to get here.I am pissed!!!I need to get this stuff going already!!

Day 20 January 29,2007

Well here it is Day 20! I got two more letters from Ken.I guess things are looking up some.He is doing the real part of training now.Hes got his Gun and they take them apart and put them together.Prob have to never take it part lol.I am still hoping he does not go to Iraq.The phone rang today and Jayden ran to get it,thinking it was his daddy.It really sucks they do not let them call even on Sunday.I mean these guys rae hlping to save us and others and they can't make a call to home once a week on God day?? I cleaned out the bathroom and threw half of the stuff out.I have to call his mom and let her know whats going on as well.Hunter has a new teacher.A guy teacher.Hes happy.But he said the works to easy for him.Thats good he notices that.Jayden used the bathroom again!! I wish Ken could see all this.Hes sleeping now.Long day I guess lol.well I am off to write my sweetie another letter:)

Day 19 January 28,2007

Well here it is Day 19! I get letters from Ken almost everyday:) They really help us.I feel bad for Jayden cause he does not understand the letters.I have wrote Ken a few times but he still does not have them.That sucks he prob thinks I have not wrote him yet.I have sent 5 letters now.Today was spent doing nothing again.Kinda boring lol.No money is bad anough with a bad car.But No Ken makes it lamer.I miss K-dogg days lol.I am slowly cleaning stuff out.Just in case by some odd chance I can sell this place.Hobie and Scott will here here Tuesday.Hope that goes ok.Everyday I think abaout Ken and what hes doing.I sure hope he knows we miss him a lot.

Day 18 January 27,2007

Today was a ok day.We cleaned up the house and watched dvds.The kids are ok today.Not as bad as yesterday.I got another letter from Kens.Hes not doing good at all.I feel bad for him.Hes getting no sleep hardly any food and they are being pushed to far.I wish I could go beat them all up for him lol.Mason stopped over for a few.Other than that its kinda a quiet day.I have to log into the sites of his and check in.Its been a few since I did.I took a hot bubble bath tonite and read some of the Bible.It was great! We all just really really miss Ken......we love him.I am gonna go watch this Lifetime movie lol

Day 17 January 26,2007

Today was a lame day.I got one of my w2 forms.Just waiting on another.I sent out another 3 letters to Ken.I am on my last nereves with these Kids.All they do is fight,fight and fight.Hunter needs a brick in his head.He is starting to refuse to listen.I am gonna hurt him if he does not listen.My nerves are shot.I am thinking of sending him away,to camp this Summer.Jayden is just as bad.My head is getting dizzy again.I am deeply annoyed.I think hes doing this cause of Ken and Iraq.He just started this since that letter.I think hes afraid to lose him.Jayden is always breaking Hunters stuff and hitting him.Hunter hits back oohh Lord! Well they are fighting I gotta go.......I miss Ken lol

Day 16 January 25,2007

Well here it is Day 16! Can u believe its been this long.I took the kids to the Mall for the day.It was weird without Ken being with us.Even Jayden was really Klingy with me.Hes stayed by me and Hunter only.when we got home I had gotten another letter from him.Hes so worn down.Hes not eating good,getting sick.The guys are treating them like 2 year old kids telling them to pee their pants?? Damn morons.Thats why more people do not join.Its not that we do not want to help but we do not want to be treated that way.He was told hes going to Iraq! 90 percent chance hes going.Then they said that most of the guys that die have the jobs they are gonna be doing.I do not think so.He best flunk out and come home.I will not think less of him.I do not want him to go to Iraq.With his job hes going to his death sentence.I want to write him and tell him but I think they read his mail.So I will tell him on the phone.Going to Iraq would be ok if he was not driving gas tanks.On them Roads?? No way...This is not what we wanted.I thought he would get a home based army job.cause of his age.I am to upset to sleep.I love him to much to lose him.

Day 15 January 24,2007

Well here it is day 15.Well Today I cleaned up some.Was not a lot to do.Its been stayign clean for the most part if I keep after Jayden.lol.Kens Mom came over today.Around one.It was good seeing her.It was weird without Ken.But there was not fights this time lol.Turns out she drove out to get Kens w2 but I thought he got it but he did not It was a W4 and it looked just like a W2.I should have figured it out.Thank God she was not mad,we laughed it off.Later we got pizza and Beer!! lol Yummy!! She helped me with Money.She almsot gave me 200 I told her I did not need that much.I think I shocked her. I told her 60 is enough.I got 100.I will be paying her back and My brother.It was nice of her and him to help us.That was pretty Much our day. I miss Ken more and More everyday:(

Day 14 January 23,2007

Well here it is Day 14.I really really miss Ken. The kids fight every time I am online or on the phone,everytime.Jaydens new thing is throwing toys at Hunter.Big ones. He yells at him OMG help. I need a sitter for a weekend before I go out of my mind. My headaches are trying to come back along with the light headed stuff.Prob from Stress.I am doing ok. Just money is a big problem.If I had that I could get the kids out and take them someplace.Put gas in the van,Buy me a beer lol. Life would be good again!! I miss having a beer with Ken in a cold freezer glass on the weekends.Anyways I am gonna let Hunter online.I found him this jackpot site full of free games.Hes hooked!!!

Day 13 January 22,2007

Well here it is Day 13th.I got a letter from Ken.that was nice.I needed to get one today.It is so stressful.I have so much to do now.I have the kids full time,the dog who makes a mess all the time now(shit and pissing in the house)all the shopping,laundry,cleaning cooking homework,running around,changing diapers,bottles.I want I need!!! arrrggggg!!! I am going nuts.The van did not start cause who knows why so Hunter missed school again.The school has a meeting tonite they want me there.I do not have the gas or time.I am sure his teacher will have a fit tommorrow.Oh well I am doing this for Ken.Hope he does well in this lol.I need a beer... lol

Day 12 January 21,2007

Well here it Day 12.Its getting pretty Crazy here.The kids are going nuts.I talk to Kens Moms which is now my moms lol(shes to much like a party gal to call her mom lol)She will be here Wednesday for Kens W2 forms.Which I still never got mine.The base ment is still wet,Its been a DAMN month already!!!! I smell the mold from the water being down there.I am sure this is not good for us.Good thing its the basement.No one has been by still.Kinda boring.Mason was gonna be here but he got held up at work.the Forms are here from the army and I have no way to get them in yet.The recruiter was to busy to take me.But he said theres no hurry.well thats iT.I am beat.

Day 11 January 20,2007

Well here it is Day 11.Its been a long awful day.The weekends are not the same without Ken here.The kids are getting out of hand.Prob cause we can not leave the house cause of the van and no money whatso ever.The gas is gone in the Van,diapers are almost out,the kids used up the soap for the bath tub...oOOH MY.I got Kens letter and the stuff from the Army Today.His letter made me feel better.He said some nice stuff to me in the letter.I hope he stays nice and comes back not so mean.Hes really a great guy just to controlling and yells to much lol.Well I am off to bed.I could have used a cold ass beer tonite.grrrrr.We miss Ken

Day 10 January 19,2007

Well here it is Day 10.Damn 10 days!!! This is gonna take forever!!! These 6 months are not gonna fly buy then are gonna snail by lol.I made my friend a myspace page.Kim was happy.We took some pics.The ones I liked of myself she hated the way she looked so I just photoshoped her out and keep the part with me.I never take good pics lol.I have started my exercises for the Summer which yes is a ways off.I hope I get rid of this Butt I have lol.I wonder what Ken is doing right now??/ I picked up Hunter early today cause we had a kinda bad snow fall and my wipers do not work.I am doing ok with everything with Ken being gone.I just miss him being here.Jayden fell out early.No naps mean early bed time.I will keep him up Sunday in case Ken calls.Hunters int he room watching wrestling.Its quiet right now! Yes!!!! I called everyone and gave them my new number.To bad Ken has the wrong one lol.The bone head on the phone gave me the wrong number.I tried to call myself and thats how I found out it was wrong.thats annoying lol.SO thats about how my day is.I wish I had a cold beer right now lol. aww well....

Day 9 January 18,2007

So here it is day 9.Its hard to believe that hes been gone this long.Him and Ihave not really been seperated this long.I mean we were once for him to go away for work but we had camera phones and sent videos and talked all the time all day so it was like he was still here.But not hearing his voice at least sucks.
I almost him his picky ways.the Jesus cross was Crooked.That was a pet peeve he had.I fixed it lol.Jaydens behavior,thank God Ken is not here.Hes getting worse.I dunno sounds like Nanny 911 time here lol.Hunter got a A on his spelling test.that was cool.Hes been ok I guess.I hope Ken calls me this week.I really miss him a lot.I got to use my house phone for the first time yesterday.i called...yes my mom.Itw as cool to fianlly sit down and tlak to her.Anyways that was it for the day....

Day 8 January,17,2007

Well here it is Day 8.Hunter made it to school.I poured hot water on the van doors again and kicked them.One door fianlly opened lol.Not very cool opening the drivers side and having Hunter climb out my door to go to school lol.

Jayden spend the day watching Bob the Builder and his dads video and We were Soliders dvds.Hunter watched the We Were Soliders movie too.

I cleaned up the water downstairs again only to have it flood again grrrr! The heat won't stay running like its suppose to.I dug up Kens old Cordless but after twos days of charging its still dead.So I had to buy one with the last of our money.That sucked.

Jaydens so cute.....and we miss Ken

Day 7 January 16th,2007

Well here it is Day 7. We had a ice storm the other day,then snow! My van was frozen shut.I tried everything to open it.Hunter wound up missing school as well.Its getting a bit crazy here with the kids cause we have no money or gas or even a ride anyplace.The van only goes a few miles before it shuts off in the middle of driving.

We have not gone anyplace at all.The money that Rob and Nikki gave is is gone.It sucks.I wished we had like 200 bucks lol.No money til the middle is Feb is gonna be very hard.No one from my family has called or helped out at all.Figures...I sure hope Ken is doing ok.we all do miss him a lot.Friday he will be at BTC.

Day 6 Januarty 15,2007

Well here it is,Day 6....Today was a lame day.We just sat around and cleaned the house.I was so tired.Hunter did the dished and put them away.Did a pretty good job.Jayden is like a hurricane through the house lol.Kim stopped by.Just hung out for a few.We all went to bed early.I could go for a beer lol.Its been a few since I had one lol..

Day 5 January 14th 2007

Well day 5 is here.Today was spent cleaning out some stuff.The kids fought most of the day today....

Good news....KEN CALLED ME!! I was so happy..he called 3 times too! He said they are mean,hes at reception.He went to ask a Sergent something and they guy told him to get out of his face.I know they have to be mean but thats not tough thats disrespectful in my eyes.Oh well he'll be ok I hope lol.He has to be. He still is not in BTC yet.

I should be getting a home phone tommorrow.I did not want one but I need a secure connection when Ken calls.Not a cell that has bad reception.

I watched Girly movies all nite and made Hunter do the same lol.

Day 4 January 13,2007

Well here it is day 4.Its 10 pm.Jayden has been in bed since 7.He had a bad day today.He still has not asked about his dad yet.I think he knows he's bye bye Army as he puts it.Pretty Much we watched dvds all day,Jaydens choice of course lol.Even Hunter came out and spent the day with us.The house has been very clean for days now.I have redone some stuff.Picking up after Jayden is a all day Job lol.

I finished up my new Military wife myspace website.Ken is gonna love it.You know seeing all the pics and videos makes me excited to play this role of military wife.Its kinda like a cool adventure.I love that Ken sets his mind to do something and even if hes afraid of it he still does it.At First the nights were my only trouble being alone, but today felt odd with out him.Since the day we met we have always been together every week.Almost 4 years.

I know hes not at training yet.I hope he does ok.I am sure he will.I hope he calls soon though.He was suppose to call 2 days ago.I am sure they have him Busy.I sure miss Ken a lot.Wonder if he misses us yet or is he relieved from the crazy mad house we have lol. Until tommorrow.........

Day 3 January 12th 2007

Well here it is the 3rd day.About 10 am in the morning.Hunter is at school and Jayden is being a terror as usual.I have tons of trouble logging into this blog.I have not heard from Ken at all. He was suppose to get to call one last time to tell me he made it there.I am kinda worried.I have changed My homepage ,the myspace page to support him.I do miss him a lot.I miss making him dinner.He loves a good plate of food lol.I even miss him being online and watching the Military channel.Although it drove me nuts while he was here.

I am dead broke.I could use about 50 bucks maybe 60 to hold me over but I have no way to get money.He paid all the bills in full before he left which was good but leaving no money behind sucks.I hope hes doing ok.Hunter is still kinda acting strange.Yesterday he slept when he got home and when he got up he just did his homework and went back to bed.Odd for him lol.Jayden is doing fine as long as we play the daddy tape 50 times a day lol.We all miss him a lot.

Day 2 January 11th 2007

Well we all got up to get ready for school. 2 Mornings without Ken being here.Last nite The President informed everyone that he has a plan to send another 21,500 troops to Iraq! Thats not what I wanted to hear.When he signed up for this they were talking about pulling the troops.This sucks.I pray he does not have to go.I already Miss him a whole lot.More than he knows.Jayden watches the video of his dad we made all day.Hunter is unusally quiet.I sure hope I can pull through this.Its only the second day.I have to do it for him though and for the Kids sake.More later tonite....

Day One.... Jan 10th,2007

Hi there,This is my First Blog.I have decided to make one to document how the day goes without my Husband and My Childrens father being here.Ken left today for Basic training in Fort Jackson in South Carolina.We got to see him briefly today,His good bye was to fast and rushed.We sorta felt rushed and incomplete.Kens mom and dad came.I could tell She was not happy with this whole thing.But shes supportive,Jerry seemed kinda proud though.he even wore his old Army gear from when he served.He has wonderful parents.I love them...

When we got home everything was ok.My friend Kim who drove us to see him off hung out with us for a while.We watched dvds.We made a few short videos of Ken to show the baby while he was gone.After Viewing them Jayden got his Coat and said "Bye bye daddy Mom".
Poor thing already misses him being not even 3 yet.He does not understand.Hunter my 8 year old was gloomy for the day.I am doing ok.Tonite will suck, cause we always lay on the coach and watch tv or talk about stuff. I hope I can do this....
Below is a pic Of Ken leaving :(