Day 37 Febuary 15,2007

Well here it is Day 37.Its hard to believe its been 37 days now.I talked to my mom last nite,I was in a bitch fest mood lol.Today I got up and called the bank there was 1000 in it so I paid the Mortgage online.It was easier,costed 12 dollars to do it but they got it.I am happy.I got some candles today in case our power goes out.This wheather has been bad,really bad.I got letters from Ken today,he kinda pissed me off cause he said he can't take bad news.There was no bad news.He was mad about overdraft fees.I did not make them.He did by not having money in the account,when he left.I waited on the Mortgage til the 15 and got the van fixed and thats done.I did not have to borrow nothing to do the car or van!! Plus he wrote that he thougt I would write him more.I write him all the time.I do not think hes getting my letters.Or not all of them.He said other soilders get mail everyday.He looks for mail from us.I write about every other day.Its hard to get time with Jayden.hes a lot of work,then he said he knew Jayden would fucking forget about him,just cause Jyaden did not talk on the phone.Well that was silly cause he knows Jayden never talks on the phone lol.Jayden talks about Ken everyday all day,trust me lol.He must be ahvin a pity party too like I was last nite lol.AW well I wrote him again today so he'll get it next month prob lol:)

Day 36 Febuary 14,2007

Well here it is day 36.Its Valentines day and no Ken:( Eveeryones getting gifts,going out to eat,etc.Not me I got kids and a headache.No school again this time cause of the storm.I found another cousins of Hunters on myspace.We are gonna get together soon witht he family.No one has seen Hunters dad.I am gonna invite them all to Hunters bday party.We are afraid to have one no one has every showed up at his party.One year I had people from work come.They did cause they new that no one else would show up.I had to shovel the snow today myself.It was hard work lol.I want to leave the house but its too cold and fixed or not I do not trust that van.I let Jayden do water colors in the kitchen.I made Hunter a myspace page and finished it up today.His page is for family only.It looks cool.A few more day until the DAYTONA 500!!!!! I can't wait!!!! I sure miss Ken a lot today:( I hope he got the cards we sent him.There was 4 of them.Todays the 14th no money yet in the bank from taxes.I have to make the mortgage by tommorrow! I may have to call moms(Kens Mom)I am trying not to.I will see.No stove yet.But my hair looks really good today lol...

Day 35 Febuary 13,2007

Well here it is Day 35.Hunter was still sick with a high fever so he stayed home again.He was still in the room ut it was hard to keep Jayden out of the room.Poor hunter no matter what he does Jayden has to do it too.The Hunter yells which is not cool,then Jayden yells,then I yell lol omg!I moved the table today and allt he legs fell off,they fell the fuck off!!! lol.All that work Robert did was for nothing.I checked it too it was very sturdy,I have no idea why it did that.He will be upset cause it took him a while to fix,But the wood that was used to make the table is weird,Its partical board.ups came yesterday for me but I was not here.They said they would be back on the note but they never showed up.Its very very bad out side.Snow storm,strong winds.Its scary.If I saw a homeless person at this point I would let them in cause its not nice out there for anyone.

Day 34 Febuary 12,2007

Well here it is day 34.I was right Hunter had 101 temp and a swollen throat.He stayed home from school.Hes missing way to much school for everythign going on.I had him a his room away from Jayden and me lol.Still no stove yet.I tried to pull the stove out myself to measure the part but the stove would not move.This sucks.I want real food not micro food.Robert Does not eat any home cooked food.over the weekend he ate all micro processed food.ewww! Today I moved the crib to the bedroom,the diningroom has more room now.Hunters room is still hit lol.Everything is in there right now lol.Kens Airsoft,ST uniforms all the toys,extra coats etc lol.Hunter heard something in the basement.we were scared big time I do not know what he heard but we checked it an hour later and everythign was fine.I have the windows blocked anyways.The crib took forever to put back together.I got a few letters from Ken today.I like getting his letters.I sure could have used his help today..

Day 33 Febuary 11,2007

Well here it is Day 33! Today the drivers were qualifying!! Tony is in 8th spot so far.WHta funny is all of Gibbs racing guys are in a row.The guys rae here for practice again,the took the stove out and Robert and Mark brought the one from the shed in.I have no idea if it works yet.I need a part for it I guess???Ken also called today!!!! His platoon won something and they got a 5 min call.He talked for ten lol! I did not even know it was him lol.It was so good hearing from him!! He got to talk to Jayden and Hunter and me! He seems to be doing ok so thats good.I know its hard on him though.I took Robert home and Nikki gave me a bunch of quilt materail.It was some nice stuff.Hunter is not feeling to good.I can tell hes getting something.

Day 32 Febuary 10,2007

Well here it is Day 32!!! Gosh time is going so slow.Good news though.Daytona pratice is on!!! That means Daytona 500 is around the corner!! I am havin a small get togehter.Robert fix our coffee table.He made all new holes in new spots and put the legs in new parts of the wood.Its strong I hope.He also helped me take some stuff downstairs.Good thing he was here.It was to heavy for me and fixing stuff with Jayden around is impossible lol.This house needs a lot of work.I hope I can get it all done before Ken gets back.I want him to come home to a nice cute house.I stil got that irritating cough! I hate it.I want to go to the doctors but taking Jayden anywhere sucks.At least with Ken here he could watch him.Oh well I will live lol

Day 31, Febuary 9,2007

Well here it is Day 31! Its getting more normal around here.The routine is getitng into play for us now.Likewise for Ken I am sure.I got another couch it was from a old lady down the road.So its nice to have more than one place to sit.It was hard for Hunter and I to get it into the house.Heres where Ken being here would help lol.Robert is here for the weekend.Thats cool.We just watched dvds all nite and Jayden was funny,when Robert told Jayden to do something,Jayden ran off and layed ont he floor and pouted.It was so cute.Rob went to hug him and Jayden with his attitude was not havin it.The whether is sooo damn cold right now.Wonder how it is where Ken is at??

Day 30 Febuary 8,2007

Well Hunter got to school ok this time lol.Jayden and I hung out watching Bob the Builder and the tape with his dad on it.Hes really smart cause he knows where his dad is.The Stove broke down well the whole thing.I have no stove now lol.Thats nice since I have a lot of food that needs a stove lol.Nice luck huh.My heat still works when it wants to.I had half way made spaggetti and the rest got made in the microwave.Ever boil noodles in a microwave lol.It turned out good though.Hobie,Scott and Michelle came by for practice.Michelle left early.I have this irritating cough,its like a build up that won't go away.My throat is sore from coughing so much.Jayden is always fighting with his brother.He throws things at him all the time.He is out of control lol.We also sent letters and cards out to Ken today:)

Day 29 Febuary 7,2007

Well here it is day 29.I had the van towed to Daves to get fixed.Hunter had to stay home again cause of it.No other kids go to his school so he had no ride.Plus I do not have friendly neighbors.It was about 570 to fix it.Kens mom offered to pay for it but I had already done it.She really wanted to help with it.I just want to try and do this on my own But I had to wait on the Mortgage to fix it the van.So I asked if I need help with the mortage could she help.I will of course give her the money.Its just not sure if the taxes will be in yet or Kens money by the 15th.She said call her.Lets hope money is in.

Day 28 Febuary 6,2007

Well here it is Day 28.The Schools were closed again due to the whether.Good thing anyways cause the van still does not work.Today was a boring day,just went online,kids watched tv. Thats it lol

Day 27 Feburay 5,2007

Well here it is Day 27! I got up at 7:00 am.Got Hunter ready for school.I went out to start the van and it would not start.I tried to open the hood but nothing.It was stuck as usual and on top of that frozen shut.I came in and found out there was no school! Its to damn cold I guess so they closed the school!! I guess below 10 degrees is cold.My battery is dead.So both kids all day means fighting all day lol.I do miss Ken helping with this part,course that mean a lot of crying lol.He yells they run and cry lol.I think they lady across the street is doing rent scam.She pretened to put trash out and closed up her doors which she never does.Her friend drove up in a van and picked up the "trash".to bad I know the landlord and called and turned her in.Its not cool to do that.Gosh I hate the Ghetto lol.Pontiac is so Ghetto.Gosh when I first came here.It was kinda nice.I am scared and I wish Ken was here to save us lol. Maybe cause we r getting used to him being gone the time will fly by.I know he misses Jayden a lot.Hes got guts! More than I do lol.Maybe not though cause Kids are so much work and stress,it may make the Army a playground lol!

ps Hunter has no school tommorrow!! Ken can I visit you asap! Kids make me nuts lol!

Day 26,Febuary 4,2007

Well here it is Day 26! Today is a laid back day and the Super Bowl is on.Moms came over to get the w2 for Ken and to hang out for a few with us.Shes so funny.I like her lol.We got some junk food and beer and hung out and watched the game.It was cool not even a few seconds into the game The Bears got the First touchdown! Damn that was fast!!! But the Colts wound up winning it.Later I watched a Little House on the Prarie Marathon! The kids fell out.The were tired.It was weird not having Ken here cause we make hsi bean dip and my hot wings and beer all day.I wonder if they got to watch the game??

Day 25 Febuary 3,2007

Well here it is Day 25!! This time I went out for the day to get more food,some stamps to write Ken,a 6 pack of beer cause I need it lol!I let each Kid picks a toy.They have been without for a while so its a treat and second cause they miss Ken and it makes em be happy for a few.Hunter picked a wrestler and a wrestling ring.Jayden got two Thomas train sets lol. I got nothing lol.Its cool.I like them happy.Kim came by for a while,First she took me to get mt taxes done then we watched lifetime movies lol and ate pizza! At 9 pm at nite Iknow Ken is in bed cause the Army has them in bed that early.I always wonder what hes thinking.We do think of him everyday,no matter what happens hes a part of our life here or not.

Day 24 Febuary 2,2007

Well here it is Day 24! I got up,still no money.I have not had coffee in weeks.I am so tired and worn out.I watched some tv with Jayden.Of course his shows.Bob the Builder is his fave show,I called the bank for the hell of it to see how much bank fees over drafted our account.I called and there was 1000 in the bank!! I had to recall to make sure! It was true!! I was singing all over the house lol! I dressed Jayden and we went out for the day.Hunter was in school! I got some food,paid a few bills and got some pictures done for Ken.It was like a alarm clock for me.It gave me energy having money lol! I even spend a few bucks on my self and got Pantene Shampoo! lol.We had a good day and I have no idea if that "WAS" Kens Income or Mine.Notice I said "WAS" lol j/k No I did not spend much.I left a lot for him in case he needed it.

Day 23 Febuary 1,2007

Well here it is Day 23!!! Today was pretty much another boring day.I was watching some Football highlights and was thinking about Ken.Jayden asked about his dad,he says where Daddy I saw Daddy Army and I think he knows.I can tell he misses him.Hunter has his first day of Tutor class.But when I picked him up he had fallen down the steps at school and hurt his knee and nose pretty good.Still broke and no money.It will be ok soon.Theres someone else always worse off that you.I got another letter from Ken.Gosh I do miss him.Not the yelling all the time but the rest of it.It starting to turn into a Routine day now without Ken.I am getting used to it now.Feb 9th will be a month since hes been gone.Him and I make a good team and I think with him doing this.It will make me stronger and in more control.